Creative mind from an insane lunatic.

I wonder when I die, If I’ll leave a positive mark in this world. Not just to my friends or family, but to people I never met. You truly know when people you never met in your life, show sympathy that you left a positive mark in this life time. Why is that? Because the fact they heard of you proves they know about your accomplishments or mistakes in life. Meaning you went above and beyond. I’m aware I’ve made my share of mistakes in life. Things that used to disgrace myself for years. But recently, I learn to let it all go. Theirs no reason why I should remember the negative when all it did was drown me. Drown me in depression, shyness, ect. Why is it that we reminiscence our past failures rather than embracing our past accomplishments​?​ Thats a wonder to me. One of the greatest emotions in life is when you rise about all the struggles life has thrown at you. I’m fully well aware I’m not the only person with problems. I know this. Nothing is wrong with me right now. I’m just sharing my insight, things that dwell onto my mind. I lost couple of important people in my life. So I believe it’s only natural that I think about the after-life. I used to be the religious type. But somewhere along 2009, after all my struggles, I embark my beliefs basically. Many religious people blame God for their problems. Why do they never blame the devil? Just pointing that out for those type. Not that I’m lableing.

Truth is, when I die, I want to be remember. I don’t want people to be depress over my death. I want them to be happy for knowing me. I don’t want them to remember the fact they won’t be able to set eyes among me this life-time. But I would want them to remember the times we cheerish. A true friend is their to put a smile and happiness to each other. Even after I’m gone, I want to do that. I want people to read my writing, poems, quotes, thoughts, about me, ect to understand me better. I have a difficult time opening up in person. So I write. Not everything I write relates to how I currently feel necessarily but it represents whats on my mind to say the least.

I want the world to be filled with peace, love, art, music. I want this life to be like the promised land.

Not a warzone.

Happiness and love is the true nature of being complete. Something I believe we forgot to share enough of somewhere along the lines we spent too much time worrying whats famous. Growing up in numbers doesn’t means our personality grew. It really should.

I would like to hear what you guys think personally.

I hope you all had a wonderful day :D

Jordan, ♥☮♫!